me being sociable, triple headed amphibians, and me being sociable again

Hrm... it looks like I'll be leading the next meeting of the sci-fi/fantasy discussion group, on next Monday. Guess I'd better figure out what that entails other than being there and having read one of the books. Heh.

In other news, here's a three-headed frog (link, not frog, snitched from trillian42).

In other other news, despite the fact that it's bright and clear and blue outside, the national weather service claims it's going to snow this afternoon and evening. This makes me most cross, as I have plans to go to a different book club thingy tonight (the contemporary fiction one) and have dinner with a friend from work afterwards. Well, as long as it's not super evil weather, I'll still go.

terribly useful link

(for me, at least)
scifan.com's themes page

dilemma

A while back, I discovered that there was a "bill of rights defense committee" for wake county. This seemed to me to be an extraordinarily cool thing, and I signed right up. And then... nothing. At all. I mean, nada. I really didn't think much on it, to be truthful, after I signed up, since I didn't ever hear anything.

Then, a few days ago, I got this:

"I would like to transfer ownership of this list to someone who will
not neglect it as I have.

There are a number of links on the internet pointing to
http://www.mshiltonj.com/wcbordc/, but nothing to has been done with
it.

If someone wants to create a web page for a more active Wake County
Bill Of Rights Defense Committe organization, I will gladly put a
redirect on my page.

If I get no response to this message in two weeks, I will assume there is no interest, and will delete the group and the page.

I wish I had more time to devote to this.

Thank you."


Fardles. So now it looks like this very promising *idea* is going to just lay down and die. This makes me cross. On the one hand, considering that nothing at all had been done, it was already effectively dead, but... but...

So now I'm facing this dilemma. I'd really like to just charge up and say "I'm your girl!" and take over and do a site redesign and keep the discussion list active and get a move on actually, like, doing stuff that, in theory, we wanted to do when we signed up for this thingy. Yeah, I'd like to do that. But (and it's a pretty big "but"), I don't really think I'm able.

I have this thing I do... I go in cycles of hermit-age and then uber activism; I stay in the bat cave for a few months and then bam I'm out in the world and doing a million zillion things. Until it all gets to be too much for me, and I start neglecting some things in favor of other things, then feel guilty about not living up to the responsibilities I heaped on myself, and so on and so forth, until I'm back in the snail shell and not going anywhere until I've recuperated. And right now, I'm in extrovert mode. I can tell. I'm leading the classic fiction book club, helping out with and a member of the fantasy/sci fi discussion group, a member of the contemporary fiction book club, trying to be more sociable with rtsfs, working on a website for a colleague, doing a site redesign for myself, working on getting our world information up and out there, learning as many new technologies (new to me...) and refreshing my knowledge of others as I can get my hands on... and that's just the stuff I'm (mostly) not getting paid for. I can't take this on my plate, too, because even though I really do think it's neat I a) don't have the experience necessary to really take it and fly with it and Get Stuff Done (tm) and b) I just don't have the time and energy to spread to it. I'm committed to this other stuff, even if it isn't as Politically and Socially aware. It's good for me. So.

I'm totally decided. I'm firm. I'm sure that this would not be a good thing, for either the wake county bill of rights defense committee, or Cislyn, for Cislyn to step up to the plate. I'm totally not there. So why am I still tempted? I'm trying to find weasel-y ways to work it in somehow, saying to myself "I could just contribute a little something here and there...". But I know better. Gah. Surely someone else will come forward, right? Someone who will organize and lead and drum up interest, and *then* I'll be happy to help out. Not as a leader. Just as a do-er. That I could do. I just wish that I didn't have this certain sinking feeling that if I don't do it nobody will.

books, pizza, books, books

What a good night. I got to the store a little early, so sat and read a bit more of Catch-22 (I'm having a really hard time getting into this book. Hope I manage before next Thursday!) before we got started. We had a good (though very long) discussion on Bel Canto which ranged over everything from narrative voice to the setting to characterization and oooo can you believe they did that there at the end bits. Then we picked the book for May, since April was set last month (Haven Kimmel's The Solace of Leaving Early), and I exerted my evil influence and suggested Tom Robbins, so we're reading Fierce Invalids Home From Hot Climates, one of his which I haven't read yet. Yay.

OtherBookClubLady and I went out to Uno's for pizza, realized it was quite late, had a fun conversation on the (sorry) state of the world and her upcoming trip to Italy and France, and then went our seperate ways. It was definitely fun. And now I have even more reading material. Heh.

Of course, I also picked up one "just for kicks" book, because, um, I'm still on payroll and get my discount, so I'd best take advantage of it. Right? Right. So I am now the proud owner of 3 Dean Koontz novels (in one book - it was a bargain book, she said in a slightly justifying voice), Dark Rivers of the Heart, Intensity, and Sole Survivor. This will probably sit on the shelf until summer. It feels like a summer book.

I'm tired now, but will be up a while I think, doing various things. Keeping Todd company while he works out some problems, at the very least. It was good to get out. I hope I can keep up this pace of socializing. Social Cislyn. Heh. What a funny idea.